advent

alas whose body
at toe is ochre & gold &
crisp wrapping paper

again
you could not last the year

i will lie down amidst you
watch the sky
an expectation

jesus christ
holy comet of fire most bright

the participle of man’s desiring
arrives to hydrate
regardless

we have never met
we have never stopped meeting

so i wait in your bones
till even these coals become dust

& some grey janitor
turns us into cloud

Mississauga VI

Part Of A Series Of Poems About Mississauga

o mississauga
      i remember her vocabulary
      her cadence & inflection
      thick with traffic
      running nowhere

o mississauga
      does this departure gladden
      are her streets tinted gold
      is the house i built filled
      with gratitude & laughter

o mississauga
      just down the highway
      i thought once perhaps you could
      be calmed be settled be okay
      (you could not)

o mississauga
      another follows in my wake
      a fraud a fake a not-quite
      but he pays his taxes & mows his lawn &
      that’s good enough

The Beach

She lies
on the beach

She lies
on the beach
on a towel the
colour of sand

She lies
on the beach
on a towel
made of sand
becoming the
colour of sand

She lies
on the beach
she is made
of sand
water takes
her bit by bit

She is
the beach
water takes
and gives back

She is
the beach

Of The Margins

who is splashed green growing
between sidewalk & street

who makes soil so
even concrete blooms

who knows your breath
its percentage

who is not much
is everything

who is before & is after &
will grow here & where

who sees but doesn’t
least expects

Dream’s Dream

In the dream your room is full of flame and
I leave my fingerprints on the knob and
I leave my footprints on the hardwood and
I look and look and I cannot find you and
I ask myself if I need to leave you and
I ask myself if I should go with you

In the dream’s dream
You are standing on the front lawn and
Your lungs fill up with clean air and
Your skin uncindered smells of detergent and
Your bones hidden and flesh-clothed and
You don’t slip through my fingers

Circular

The words are to find out what
The words are for

The story is that
The story is told

To tell it is
To tell it how to be

To read it you have
To read it into it

To circle the sentence
“To circle the sentence” makes the

Ends meet that we make to make
Ends meet

The End Of The Tour

Did you think,

This small room inside my chest
Is airless, Is becoming the dark

Bruise of space, Is not becoming
But is

The god, the phenelzine
Who would not take you back

Fled up into the rafters
And that is what you are doing there

Trying, blue with effort
Ascending to it

A Scanner Feral

The fox threads near
A bright liquid

My heart
My breath
Struggle to escape to explode

I reason with them:
We will breathe
Tomorrow

As the coyote passes
A serrated stream

Another day
Unnoticed

Her head lilts side to side
A scanner feral

Another day
Just another day

The Most Important Thing Is That You Walk Through The Fire

i love without warning
seeing you

not you of course
but you

by now a present tenth
slight

a room full of misplaced things
cornered

in the shimmering slough
of old ambitions

speaking
brightly as you must

in quests and calls
the most important thing is that you walk through the fire

unchanged
yourself always yourself

i love out of nowhere
hearing you

not lies of course
but lies